I owe myself an apology.
For all the times I put up with shit I didn’t deserve.
For all the times I stayed in relationships that made me second guess my worth.
For all the times I believed the stories in my head that told me I am not enough, I’ll never make it or that I am unworthy of happiness and success.
For all the times I gave my power away, let others cross my boundaries and failed to act on what I KNEW was right.
For treating my body like she was a slave instead of a Queen and for pretending to be someone I’m not, so others didn’t feel uncomfortable around me.
Please forgive me.
I love you”.
(Ho’oponopono is an ancient Hawaiian forgiveness prayer and ritual, powerful in transforming energy in situations that require healing).
It’s taken me a lot of years, a lot of work and a lot of courage to grow, let go and reach this point (and of course, there will always be more evolving to do).
But, the truth is, I wasn’t able to fully embody the love and spiritual self esteem I now know, until I knew who it was I really needed to honour and revere.
And then I met her.
I came face to face with the true essence that is me …. Me beyond my childhood stories and life experiences, me beyond my perceived flaws and faulty self perceptions and I couldn’t help but bow deeply to her.
The butterfly spirit that flutters within. Clothed in humanness, hard wired for growth and woven together with pure, infinite stardust. The unbreakable, unshakable aspect of me who still loves despite pain, grows despite roadblocks and is willing to open and learn even when the lessons feel too much to bear ….
It’s damn near impossible to see ourselves clearly, when the lens we are looking through is so blurry and distorted. Conditioned to see that which is broken, damaged, less than or somehow, incomplete.
This past year has been a dance of coming home to me. Of peeling back the veils and glimpsing the truth of who I really am – more than I’ve known before. Slowly, steadily, two steps forward, one back, lens on, lens off … as I allowed my eyes to accustom to the light.
Me. Perfectly imperfect, powerfully aligned, ME.
Can I own this? Can I share this with the world? Can I maintain this level and keep rising – even when the storms of life hit hard?
My answer is a full bodied, YES!
Yes, because I am willing.
Yes, because I know it starts with choice.
Because I know I don’t have to be perfect, that it’s ok to fall over, to side step, to sit idle … as long as I remember who I am.
I choose to know myself beyond my limited thinking.
I choose to meet my fears as they rise and dance them into the light that is love.
Even when it’s hard.
Even when it’s terrifying.
Because I KNOW, that the only barrier standing between me and the life I desire, are the choices I make about what I believe to be true.
If you want to thrive in 2019, you must be willing to look beyond the old ways of viewing yourself and rise to a new path. A new level. A new way knowing and embodying YOU.
And it often starts with forgiveness.
Are you ready to liberate yourself?
You know it’s time.
To celebrate the joy of self love and appreciation, I am gifting a rose quartz/sandalwood bracelet with every Mala purchase of $150 or over! Rose quartz is the crystal of Divine love and self acceptance. Offer ends Midnight New Years Eve or until stock runs out (5 available). Shop here.
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